Leaving a doctor’s appointment last week, I scurried to my car in flip flops and huddled under a light jacket in attempt to dodge the puddles and raindrops that were quickly forming. Just an hour prior it had only been drizzling, so I was not prepared for the sudden and unexpected downpour. Yet somehow I … More Thinking Beyond the Storm
Surprise! It’s… grief?! Wait… No… That’s not right… It’s a boy!! But why is grief popping in during our happy gender reveal? I wasn’t expecting a reveal within a reveal, but that’s exactly what happened. Let me start from the beginning… I had no idea what to anticipate with our current pregnancy given that … More Surprise! It’s… grief?
This was our first major holiday without our son and dare I say we enjoyed it? How? Before I get to that, you have to know what the week before was like to have a full appreciation of the outcome. Eight days prior to Thanksgiving, I assured my counselor I would not need a session … More Thankful
I preface this entire post with this: I am not formally credentialed to be advising anyone through grief. Having only lost a few significant people in my life, death and grief are actually unnatural topics for me. With that said, I’ve been wanting to write about emotional triggers and offer informal advice for anyone who, … More Triggers
I’m sure you’re wondering “What’s up with the super depressing pic?”. For starters, it resonated with me. But more importantly it’s relatable. Most of you have felt just.like.this. Why might that matter? Read on… I wrote this post after a recent meltdown, which went something like this: Me, sobbing in Everett’s nursery. Missing him. Angry that … More How to Relate
Our parents were thrilled they day we shared news of our pregnancy! After all, each of our five siblings had established families of their own. Furthermore, we had been married more than four years and were taking our sweet time to finish school, settle into a home and establish careers. And while we were comfortable … More Grandparents Grieve Too
As I gazed down at my new morning cocktail of prenatals and preventative meds I thought grimly, “This sucks.” Since Everett passed away, we’ve gone through extensive testing and appointments in anticipation of trying for Baby #2 someday. As a result of this process it has come to light that I have something in my … More A Tough Pill to Swallow